...speechless...

erm...
When the money comes, everything's fine..
When the money's gone, everything's kansai...
I really have to settle myself in a financial turmoil until NTU settles my salary prior end of the year..

Going home with no pocket money in hand is definitely a problem when your friends ask you to join the gathering. So, I am thinking of being "off" when I go back later. Is it possible?(anyway, many friends are not in KK at that period)
No, for my own personality, I understand that sometimes I am an emotional person(for no reason), so, I do need some friends to chat with me. I don't want to commit any silly things!

Erm, let me think again...Recently, my mind was a bit congested. Couldn't think properly. I am truly sorry for whatever silly things I've done. and for you guys back in KK, I am a jerk.
Emotional wave struck me again and again and I don't know why when I am alone, I will be like this!

Think too much? probably..
I am finally speechless about myself..