Finally, it has come to the end of year 2~I am a mean nobody

心墙

 

一个人仰望碧海和蓝天
在心里面那么怀旧的音弦
海豚从眼前飞跃
我看见了最阳光的笑脸
好时光都该被宝贝
因为有限

我学着不去担心得太远
不计划太多反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天
快乐的看每一天
第一次遇见阴天
瞅住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解
我感觉我懂你的特别
你的心有一道墙
让我发现一扇窗
偶尔发出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放
打开窗你会看到
悲伤熔化

你会闻到幸福晴朗
的芬芳

Finally, it has come to the end of year 2.. Time passes very fast as I rewind to 2 years ago, I was just stepping out the country for the 1st time.

It seems just yesterday's incident.

It is really a thing that we cannot deny that it does pass very fast.

This morning, I was listening to this song and I think everyone has a wall in the heart. In order to make a breakthrough, someone has to break the silence. And throughout this 2 years in Sg, I want to make a confession that I still have some kinda wall-in-the-heart thingy. It's hard to get rid of it.

To break the silence between 2 persons, it's quite hard. Someone has to be the 1st one to make it.

Maybe I am just a passerby .

Never think of want to make things clear and understand it.

I just realize that I am a passer by. Never play an important role in someone or anyone's life apart from friends and family. I want to be an important one.

This 2 years, can be considered as fast pace and stress everyday. I have to cover myself with happiness and non-anxiety..It's very hard to do that until I really can't stand with it. 2 years time, I learned a lot from it. Individually and collectively, teamwork and emotion control is the most I learned and yet the emotion control is the worst I got.

I don't want to further explain the emotion control as my blog tells everything if you guys read it.

I've learned to be alone, to be happy alone, smile alone.

I've learned to do things independently and sometimes still need helps too.

I've learned to help others with passion.

I've learned to camouflage with smile.

I've learned to do something deliberately to make others in hot soup. 

From above few points, I know that I have changed to another person. I won't be so weak towards any sweetness of life. I won't be that stupid to any distraction in life.

Life's good now. I won't destroy it with my hands and my mind. Life's as simple as that. 

Be mean and cunning..you won't incur any loss from that. 

Being too nice to someone, you will lost your mind and heart.

You will never get back what you expect after you helped someone or do something.

I've learned, do not expect too much from someone who you helped a lot.

I repeat...Be cunning...and mean...

This year 2, happiness and sadness, all began in semester 2. Thought it will be a nice one. It seems just a dream after all. I nearly fall and collapse due to my incorrect decision. I knew that it was my fault and I've learned, there's no necessary to treat people so nice and expect them to treat you back nice too.

And finally, it comes to the end of year 2 when the last paper ended on 5th may..

After that, it will be my busiest time because of the test game, EID presentation and project works. -.="" it's really a busy period. After the presentation, I will go to Penang on 14th...and travelling month starts!

My year 2.....the end...