Random feeling

I want to dedicate this post to those I owe, I appreciate, I like and I ......

I owe someone, someone that I really owe them for my lifetime, my parents...give me the chances to do all the right things, give me the chance to correct my mistakes, give me the money to spend when I need it.
I have no idea how to pay it but what I know is, I must not make them disappointed, sad or worry..
Secondly, this is the someone who I owed too much, owed a good relationship with...I just have no idea how to make it better again....if this lifetime cannot, perhaps, next lifetime...I will appreciate it, and not owe it..again..

I appreciate things as well as the person who I admire(this term does not apply to any "love" thingy), I appreciate when I am working with them. I appreciate this kind of working spirit very much! Perhaps if all KKHS friends know or knew about it, ya....we worked as a team...we cheered as a team!

Person I like the most, maybe.....if I want to bring out the issues, I am sure I am a loser. I don't have the right to love or like a person. I should change my own way and my personality. Hope one day, here comes my destinied one...

I am not doing anything at here, sitting and studying....learn nothing but keep studying..everyone in Malaysia seems have their time to change themselves into a better person..I, myself....I feel very disappointed when I do not feel any improvement.
I want to change now!

我以为...

我以为我能够放得下....
突然觉得，自己在12月回家那一段时间真的让一个美好的东西，在我身边溜过...

那种遗憾，我到现在我还在责怪自己...
为什么要回家呢? 我很想和XX一起度过难关的...
为什么偏偏有人会趁虚而入?
如果我留在XX的身边的话，我觉得我能做得到的是安慰，开解和感动XX..
我真的遗憾了...
而且，我真的就让一个那么好的机会溜过我的身边了...

让自己有个美好的回忆，有那么困难吗??
我已经尝试了很多次，但是，祂总是给了我很伤心的结果...
也许我应该放下，但是，我是很重感情的人，所以，我暂时不大要放得下...

根本

回到最初....

其实，一切完美状态时,当局者迷时,有人会去提醒吗?

回到最初....

事情的根本，是好是坏，我们是不能去辨别...对吗?

回到最初....

如果不是行事鲁莽，人家会对你好吗?

Dream remains dream

It's again....
Dream remains dream....
I would always want a dream that might not come true....
Let me have a nice dream and have a nice sleep...

I don't want to face it anymore...
I just want to stay in my dream...